Laura exudes the quiet Here and Now. It comes through in each post that she writes, although she's pretty clever as well, proving that being quiet does not mean being boring. In this post she writes about making a commitment not to complain for 21 days. I was just thinking along these lines this weekend. I don't want to complain. I don't want to portray a sense of discontent or grouchiness, but actually what I've really become convicted about is yelling, which results in the same poor reflection of an inner attitude. I find myself yelling a lot, and not only does that affect my attitude, but the attitude of everyone in the house.
I have admitted before that I'm a naturally a loud person. So, it's easy for me to cross that line and slip into yelling. I yell because I'm lazy or tired or because I've already said something .
"Amanda! Come down here! I need you." I'm too lazy to go up to where she is so that I don't have to yell to get her attention.
"Kyle, put that down. Put it down! Put it down!" He is not a first-time obeyer, so I talk louder hoping that volume will make up for my lax disciplinary habits. Also, I don't want to go over and show him.
"Go get your pajamas on RIGHT NOW!!" I did not follow up with the first, second or third request, so now I'm really angry and I mean business!
I'm really making an effort. I'm thinking about what leads me into yelling, and trying to remedy those things. It all comes back to enforcing my requests. Expecting first time obedience. Being the strong link in the chain, not the weak link.
The vague They say that it takes 21 days to make something new a habit. I'm going to give it a go. I honestly don't hold out much hope that I will make a miraculous transformation, but I know that I've had enough of myself, and I also have heard my children picking up this habit (yelling in anger and frustration, but also just raising their voice to be heard).
It's hard being the Mom.