She told God, "I am not willing, but I am willing to be made willing."That is at the core of so many of our issues, isn't it? We think that we are right, and so we are unwilling to change: to listen to another opinion that might sway our thoughts, to do things a little bit differently, because we know that our way is the right way, to step out of our comfort zone to embark on a new venture that might be a bit uncomfortable.
The first thought that entered my head as an area of unwillingness was housekeeping and care for my family. It's not that I am resistant to it, because most things like dinner preparation and cleanup and laundry have to be done whether or not I'm willing. Baths have to be given and pajamas have to be put on whether or not I want to do it. But when my heart has the right attitude of seeing it as a part of my job and wanting to do it fully and happily, then it's not so unpleasant.
So this week, each time I saw that pile of dishes in the sink and felt a bad attitude coming on, I simply sighed, "I'm not willing, Lord," followed quickly by, "but I'm willing to be made willing," as I tackled the task at hand. Did it work? Well, if we are assuming that I now love to do dishes and make lunches and dinner (again, and again, and again), then no, it didn't work. However, if the standard for it working is that I am complaining less, or feeling less put-upon by the rigors of being a full-time housewife and mom, then it is working.
Is there an area that immediately stood out to you for which you need to be willing to be made willing? Will you commit to pray and see if a change in attitude results in a change of action?