One of the things that God has been prompting me to change is my temper with my children. He worked as He generally does -- first bringing awareness of this sin to me, then helping me to work to overcome it by showing me what MY part is in the whole cycle (namely selfish guarding of "my" time and not having the proper expectations of my children's behavior).
That's the short story, but the fact is that this has been a years-long process, and one in which I finally seem to be making some progress.
But then last week, I was irritable. My children annoyed me. I just couldn't seem to get it right. I shared my shortcomings with a close friend, and said I just didn't know what was wrong with me.
"PMS?" she suggested in seriousness, knowing the havoc that a woman's hormones can play on her in her late 30's (oh, how it hurt me to write that, but at 38, I guess it's fitting).
"No. I don't think so. I guess I'm just mean."
Well, a day or so later, Mother Nature showed that those feelings of irritations over the past few days probably were due to PMS, and I rejoiced a little bit.
Not that it's an excuse to behave however I wish, but at least I understand the loss of control over my emotions.
I am not good at keeping up with my cycle, obviously, but Christina Tynan-Wood gave a fun use of the internet in her book How to be a Geek Goddess, which I think I'm going to start using: Woman Calendar (compatible with all sorts of devices, and available for a free trial), and Advanced Woman Calendar (I'm using a free trial) can each predict when you will receive your monthly visitor up to a month in advance.
So next time I'm feeling irritable with my children, I can apply the proper remedy: some quality time with them, a scheduled a break for me, or a Midol.
(I'm editing this to add it to Works for Me Wednesday. Last week I talked about throw up, this week another fluid, but I don't plan on making it a weekly feature).